Two guys

All names have been changed to protect the privacy of everyone involved.
I recently went through a time period when I loved two guys at once. One of them had been a very good friend for years (since 5th grade, we're in 9th now) and we don't even know when we went from good friends to boyfriend/girlfriend. I met a guy online (Seth) and we became friends. I then went through some tough times and went back into depression (different story for another time). My boyfriend (Jeff) didn't even notice, but Seth caught on and helped me through it. I probably would have attempted suicide without him. Jeff also has an internet friend that he is very close to. One night, I had a dream that Jeff dumped me for his internet friend and Seth asked me out. I felt like the worst girlfriend in the history of dating.
Eventually, I figured out I loved Seth. I still do. I was nervous and told my friend Elizabeth, and she told me to go ask if he liked me back. I was kind of shy about it, but I did, and I learned that Seth was already in a relationship. XD