love

Today marks the new beginning. Today, I woke up expecting to feel conflicted, but I wasn't. I had like this boy for 8 years, but we were never single at the same time, and even when we were, he always like another. So when I moved, I thought, hoped, that this could be a new beginning. However, karma was not on my side. I had to go back every summer to visit family; every time I was pray that I would get to see him. That would be enough I told myself. But as I said, karma and fate were anything but on my side. I never saw him. And for the 8 time, the last time I spent back, I saw him. However, the pull was gone. I had been in love with him for so long, and not seen him in so long, that the feeling had faded, not completely but close. When I came back I found a new guy that I liked. But this time I was brave, and confessed, he responded with rosy cheeks. "I have liked you since I ever met you." And he smiled with a million dollar grin that even to this day, fills me with happiness.

Today, I woke up and felt the same pull that I had felt for a long time, only this time, it was directed towards a different person. He may not be my first love, but he makes me happier, and more enamored(filled with love, BIG WORD) than my first love ever did and could ever.

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