I have a crush... This year will mark my 5 years of liking him

i have a crush to a guy that 1 year older than me.He reminds me of my first crush.This year will mark my 5 years of liking him.He seems so perfect!good in studies and co-curriculum.He knows that I like him too.I'm a type of person who are so obvious when liking somebody.We never talks,but if we talks,it means war!His mouth!I really like him,but his way of talking to me,I felt like i'm gonna kill him.I have heard story about him that he is very gentle towards the ladies..but,i've never seen that side of him!All my friends thinks i'm delusional about him..but to me..he's the most coolest sometime cutest person in the world,you know what i mean..this year,is his last year of school,that's mean this year is the last time i'm ever gonna see him.Frankly speaking,I don't really know him..I just knew his full name a few months ago,for me,girls shouldn't confess their love,its just my opinion.I hope the guy knew about it himself and just confess.Hhahahaha,because of him,i can't see other man as man,my eyes only set to him.Man can be really confusing.I dont know what they're thinking.Plus my crush is so emotionless.Sometimes,,SOMETIMES!i think he always looking at me,i've been also thinking does he like me also?!AAHHH!!!Of course not!there's many pretty girls in our school!ithat's probably just a delusion.Never trust things that you can't see!its for reminding myself.this year i plan to stay away from him..I think that's a good decision i guess?